halloween

tonight we took the kids to a halloween party, we weren't going to go as due to my iron levels I have been feeling crappy. it was fab the kids looked so good. emily went as a witch and I colored her face green with a fake nose she looked such a little gem and was so so funny. joseph was fantastic he was dressed as a skeleton I also put some face paint on him too.




we also went to the sainbries half price sale today and oh gosh did I spend we have been scrimping and scraping  to afford christmas due to us having about 21 kids to buy for. we even could pick up a few to put away for next year too. I have lost  the elder three's christmas presents though so tomorrow I am going to turn the house upside down to look for them hhmmmm were to start?
I am getting so exited to christmas even though I have so so much work to do first..

my wait issues

well what can I say! through out the last two years I have lost 5 stone through slimming world but as I write this I am looking down and seeing that in the last 6 months I have put all 5 stones back on. I am utterly ashamed of my self but I am addicted to food well sweet stuff sweets,biscuits, cookies, doughnuts anything to be honest.

I need to start again but I haven't got the will power. I do not know were to find it again..

me and martyn on the first of November are putting a stop to this. martyn is not going to eat crisps for one whole month and I am not going to eat sweet treats either. so we will see how we go and how fast either of us brake the deal..

on the first of november I will take a picture of my face/body ect: so we can see if I am looking smaller in time.

feeling unwell

I feel very weak today and somewhat unwell.

I have been feeling like this for months now. after a self blood sugar test I thought I had finally found the problem a reading of 10.2 indicated I was diabetic like my grandparents (both sets) parents, aunts and uncles. I was sent for a fasting blood test and I also asked for my Iron tested just in case.

after being told the doctor needed to see me I resigned my self to having diabetes but I was surprised to see I didn't actually have diabetes but my iron was on the floor.

this wasn't what I was expecting but really happy to know I am not diabetic.

my doctor was lovely as always he gave me three options one to go on medication (I had been taking iron meds with out success so this was a no) the second was to have a course of injections spread over a few months and third was to have an blood/Iron transfusion which scared the crap out of me :0( so I went with the second one.

unfortunately the chemist have to send off for them so whilst I feel weak as a kitten and so ill I want to be in bed all the time. I am considering ringing the doctor back and asking for the third option but the injections have already been ordered so I don't want to piss them off.

I have just spoke to the chemist and they said it is up to 5 days so it could be next wednesday.

so after losing a full day in bed yesterday hubby made me liver and onions to help me get a bit of Iron in me. today I feel a little better than yesterday but still weak,.

my first day on placement.

Oh what can I say other than I have a million and one things going through my head and I am not sure how fast or in the right order they will come out but I am a little blown away and I am not too sure if that is a good thing or a bad.

The first thing I did when I got there was to sit down with the giant policies and procedures there was 10 section to it and I only went through 2 there was so much to get through I only wrote a brief description of each on and I had filled three pages of A4 I think I may need to set an action plan regarding taking notes to jot things down.

I felt a little like a spare part but the dep manager made me feel so welcome

I was able to walk in and spend time with the residents and I was able to walk away when personal care was needed this in its self was alien to me due to me working in care homes before I was used to getting scrubbed in and helping out, one thing that was strange was in the past we weren’t really advised to sit down with the resident which in itself broke my heart. It was very refreshing to see staffs are encouraged to go and sit with residents and help calm anxiety by some contact and reassurance.

I had a very strange day I thought I knew dementia due to working with residents before but I do not these resident are not just to lovely confused residents, many have underlying mental health issues and illnesses which makes it much harder to help them. Violence out of fear is an often occurrence, training is adamant within this profession to be able to sensitive restrain someone for their own safety.

it was such a wonderful home the staff and the residents are lovely and I really do think I will love this placement so so much I am already looking forward to next week.

I will sure try and keep writing in this blog it will be nice to just type..

work placement

after being given a placement by the one of the lecturers, which was a disaster. I was upset but I decided to think positive.

I was very disappointed with the meeting; I also knew I would not be able to do the hrs. They wanted me to do from 9.30 to 9 at night on Wednesdays this was just not possible with the distance and not being able to drive.

I had a ring around on the evening to see if I could find another placement I contacted the Carleton care home for emi patients and arranged to go and see them the next day (15^th of oct) from the second I walked through the door I felt like I was going to like it.

The deputy manager took me under her wing and had a read through my booklet to see what I had to do. She said I wouldn’t be left a loan with the residents (i was a little sad as I have done the job as a carer before)

She had experience of looking after students and explained that I would be doing different roles with in the building so I will be shadowing the nurse/carers/management/seccutary

She arranged for me to start on the 27^th of October on a Wednesday, I will be possibly going in now and then to see different times of the day and how it goes.

is back and hoping to use this blog

well I am shocked to be back I have to say I forgot all about it.

a lot has happened since then. Emily is 3 coming up to 4 and doing fab she is so so cheeky and so funny she would make me laugh all day if I didn't have to be her mum and tell her to behave.

We are currently waiting for a referral for her as she seams to have sleep apnea although we think it is more than likely related to her over large tonsils and adenoids like I was. she has amazing hair lovely and blond with fantastic curls down to her shoulders.

joseph is now 2 and a cheeky little monster already he isn't even entertaining potty training but likes to use the potty as a car and drags it across the room with him. Joseph's medical issues have not been too bad although he has still a long way to go but thankful the heart doc did discharge him from there clinic. at the moment we are weighting for an appointment for a scan/mri on his head due to nursery being worried of seeing his eyes rolling and vacant moments and uncontrolled shivering when he is tired and just woke up or is just not 100%. we have only seeing this now and then whilst he has been ill.

he still walks with his feet leaning and walls often but other than that he isnt too bad, he has still got reflux his feet and hands are still the same and we will find out if he needs some of his toes removing next time we see the orthopedics.

but like emily he is so so funny and a very happy boy.

they both love nursery were they have been going for a year now. they have come on leaps and bounds emily is such a good talker and joseph is getting there too. he has started imaginer play which blows my mind as emily has only just started around now so joseph has just picked up on it too.

now the main thing in my life is I started uni last year I could not believe they let me in university I honestly feel like I could pinch my self to make sure I am not dreaming. thankfully I managed to drag my self through the first year and oh my god I actually got through it and was accepted in to the second year.

I am now looking for my work placement within the year